Deem as an unsupportive friend. That's not I want. Feels so helpless. You see your friend falling into a pit. An offer to help and hoping to bring some senses but "If one day I were to succeed, I know who's supportive and who's trying to bring me down" Never will I have the intention to bring you down. "Trying to bring me down" revolved in my mind. A sleepless night accompanied with soft sobs.

Perhaps what kelly said is true "As we grow, the wants in us grow as well, and there's eventually a limit to what you can offer to help". Time passed, people changed. Some changed for good, while some changed, unrecognisable. We know you will never come back again, but we are still longing for this day to come. Silently.

I can't handle these friendship like I used to be. "unsupportive, trying to bring me down" that's how people see me after 6 years of Friendship. Did you even make the effort to find out what we want, why we care? I don't mean to stereotype you, but you are telling, I can simply do without friends as long as love exist. If friendship is important to you, you would have make the little effort. But you don't. Only in times of need, we are being called as a Friend. Friends are dead when love exist.

I surrender~